It’s interesting to look back and be reminded that whilst we were building to launch, and I was also dealing with a dumpster fire elsewhere I was also writing the score and songs for a major massive multi episode series for a streamer (yet to be streamed!).
“7th September-so launch now pushed back to 10th act, so a little more than a month to go. Did storyboard for our launch trailer of Murmeration. Nice and simple. Got a bit of money fear today. But I think we’ll make it albeit by the skin of our pants. Just need that investment then all is good. But have faith in a month and a week and a PRS distribution hopefully we start crawling some back in merch sales just so we don’t completely go to the wall… imagine that. Bust before launch wonder how many people that happens too. Cam continuing to be doing great work. Oh, and we have a temp logo. Gonna get the community to do the actual logo. I’ll make it a big prize!
10th September-pounding through the last ep of___. Kind of sad. Managed to get two shoots for Caroline’s “Home” and Sally’s end song one of Tom’s songs and a debut from wee Joe. Things have been rubbish on the___
___I’m beat all I can be asked to right now
11th September – try to finish 121-122 today but didn’t have the strength feel totally beat up after the machinations of last week. I think the Ep is going to be good. Lots of hit cues and loads of the song, Home. I got my first tinge of fatigue with the project today probably a good sign that finishing will be good. Mind in a doubtful and shit cycle today so kept clear of socials and news. Which reminds me! Haven’t taken my pills!
12th September – so I did it.___done well written. Uncertain the last ep is shit but so was the last ep of S1. I’ll get it better today put out an Instagram today. Talking about it. Lots of lovely responses. Feels weird. Think I do a good job. Completed first Crow Hill vid today. I think it’s good but not sure. Very low at moment. Wanna run away and become a hermit.”
(I end the entry with an expletive)
When referring to eps being “shit” I’m speaking about my score. As crunch comes which it inevitably does with season enders you never experience the season-end high you’d hope for. The crescendo of artistic fervour building to a climactic orgasm of sheer brilliance. No, there’s never enough time. There’s a little bit of fatigue. There’s a little bit of weariness as you’re scooping the last bit of cake batter out of the mixing bowl. One more idea, one more different take on a chase, or the theme, or a twist. There’s also that feeling of impending unemployment. But also, I guess on a subconscious level a sense that some humans who you have shared an experience with, at times stressful, periodically frustrating or disappointing, but often elating and celebratory It all contributes to a sense of ennui. Sadness I guess.
Probably also noting that the “temp” logo stuck. No customer submissions. It was the video of a crow taking off on Crow Hill, I just nabbed the first frame and our designer turned it into an SVG for us. Job done.